She Watched Me Cry Today

The T.V. turned off.

The makeup and hair could wait.

I picked her up and just held her.

The words of the song started the tears.

"You look around you and you wonder if you'll ever measure up. In this world it seems, you may never be enough. Don't let anyone convince you that it's true, so much beauty lives inside of you and you are enough, just look up."

"Remember you are greatest, when you walk with God. When His light is in your eyes, You are truly strong, You don't have to prove your beauty in the eyes of men, You are divine within you were sent here to become like him".

She just stared at me with wide eyes. I stared at her with wet eyes. She was sent to me. After all these years I had finally met my child. I was holding her, loving her, perhaps the way God does.

Was she sent to me to remind me that beauty lies within? For so many years I have been trying to be beautiful in the world's eyes. I even had a particular surgery, hoping it would make me feel more physically beautiful.

I am afraid I have been so focused on outer beauty that I have lost an inner beauty. Am I as friendly as I use to be? No. Am I possibly a little more judgmental? Yes. Am I a little bit more selfish, impatient, pessimistic and unforgiving? Yes.

Do I have God in my heart? A little. I would probably say my heart consists of 90% me, me, me and 10% Him.

I don't want to pass this on to Her. So I better make the change now.

She watched me cry today. Cry because She is divine. Her beauty is so pure and it is because she is so close to him. I want to carry a beauty like She does.

I think there are many reasons why He asks us to become as a Little Child. I want to be like Her because She is like Him.

She is my example.

HAPPY 2 MONTH MARK PAISLEY GIRL

Wow... 2 months have gone so fast! Paisley is still the perfect little baby. I don't know how we lucked out. She sleeps so well and she is starting to smile like crazy. She'll smile for anyone and her smile seems to get the largest when I talk to her about her Daddy.

We took her to her 2 month appointment and she now weighs 9 lbs. 7 oz. and she is 21 1/2 inches long. She still seems so small. The Well Baby Nurse commented on how Paisley seems VERY wise for just 2 months. I agree. She is so content as she looks around. Whether that is Daddy in the office or Me doing my hair..... she loves to just observe. She has also found her voice box and loves to use it when I hold her. Oh the look she gives me, like she knows something so special and just wants to share it.

She is a blast. She is so00000 cuddly and my favorite part of the day with her is between 5:00am and 9:00am. I give in and pull her into bed with Bill and I. She loves cuddling between us and being lazy with each of us on her side.

What a joy My Little Paisley Girl is.

Belated Christmas Post

Bill and I were very fortunate to spend the Holidays with both families. We had such a wonderful time. It has been a blessing that Bill as been able to work closer to home, we loved seeing all of you.

Our Christmas really was special and these pictures are posted a little late, but they already make me miss everyone.

PRICE CHRISTMAS '08

MCKNIGHT CHRISTMAS '08

A TOAST TO RATATOUILLE

STUPID MOVIE. You've made me consider something totally insane.

Last night we were both in the kitchen. We also both heard the noise. Dax (our dog) beelined it toward the dishwasher. At first I didn't think anything of it, until, he shoved his nose between the cracks of the lovely appliance.

Strange. Still the thought completely passed through one ear and out the other.

I awoke this morning and for some strange reason asked Bill to check under our sink for this gray haired, little critter. About 5 minutes later he announces we have had a visitor.

LITTLE TURDS EVERYWHERE. These rodents pooped all over my food pantry and underneath our sink.

Before Bill pulls anymore stuff out, I hop up on the counter, whip out breakfast for Paisley and observe with feet OFF the ground.

My first reaction is that I want to vomit. But then odd thoughts flowed into my mind about these nasty little creatures.

First off, why did God create them?

Second, do they have feelings?

And then even crazier, I start thinking about this lovely movie. Did this critter cook some gourmet meal for his family while we were away? Is his family underneath our house, in the crawl space, singing songs with empty stomachs? Are they dancing in my walls and mocking me for my fear?

How in the world did I start sympathizing for a stupid mouse?

I think the poop is getting to my mind.

I AM GOING TO DIE---- FROM THE

HAUNTOVIRUS.

Stupid Movie.

I wish the movie gave suggestions on how to KILL..KILL...KILL them. But no, Disney wouldn't create such violence.

So I ask you, what's the best way to D.E.S.T.R.O.Y. my new found friends?

YES PAISLEY, WISHES DO COME TRUE!

What I wanted most for Christmas, I received.

Nope, the box DID NOT contain a positive EPT Test.

That small little box that was hid under the tree contained two words that I have been waiting to hear...

CLEARANCE ACCEPTED!

Santa brought me my Christmas wish. On January 24th Bill and I will be taking our beautiful daughter to the Temple to be sealed.

Heavenly Father, thank you for this wonderful gift. I have dreamed of this day for many, many years. A part of me is sad when I look back at my Wedding pictures and the Temple is missing in the background. Though I may sit and wonder why we didn't get the clearance a year ago, I won't know the complete reason in this life. All I know is that I DID marry a man who was "willing and worthy" to take me to the Temple.

Sometimes, I admit, it was hard to have complete faith in things this past year. But all I can do now is express my gratitude for not asking us to wait any longer. The most important thing is not the pictures, but reaching this goal.

I love you. I love my eternal family. I love this gospel.

I can't wait to lay our little girl across the altar and seal her to us.

This day will soon be here.

My dreams from my childhood are STILL comingn true.